Well, here I am again. I’m pretty darn happy at the moment, because life is excelling at the speed of light with fleeting interactions in the Isla Vista community, memories made with friends, trips taken outside of the UCSB bubble, and much, much more.
I am sitting in a coffee shop in I.V. – one of my favorite spots, Caje Coffee, with a friend of mine (her name is Mallory, hi Mallory). She doesn’t know I just wrote her name.
I feel like a light bubble floating above the central park in Amsterdam, with millions of other light bubbles floating along themselves – that’s what Isla Vista is, a community of floating bubbles. Well, it’s not, it’s a community of youthful dreamers and young adults beginning to form their lives. And wow, are they forming.
My friend Olivia is heading to L.A. in one month to start her now job at WME!!! My friends Hannah and Halley will be moving back to Scandinavia for their graduate degrees!!! My friend Jack might move to Chicago! My friend Shauna will start her Ph.D! Some of the friends I met this year (who I care about immensely) are going to med school, trying to become directors, and so much more! My cousin Tenaya just got a new job in L.A.! I will be doing who the hell knows because I still haven’t landed a job!!!!!!
It is incredible to see us all grow up, go places, and start forming our ideas of a career. I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS PART OF OUR LIVES IS ALMOST OVER. It is a congregation of crazy, nostalgia, joy, heartbreak, warmth, everything.
College has been incredible. Truly incredible. Outstanding. Wow. See? I don’t even have the vocabulary to describe it all.
I sit here and realize how much I’ve grown, how much I’ve learned, in these past 4 years. It is almost surreal to think that I was a person entering UCSB at the age of 18. I mean – how is that real?
From study abroad, discovering a love for travel, to figuring out I don’t want to be 30 and researching how pig brains might relate to human brains, to thinking I want to become a creative director (oh yeah that happened recently), to simply being surrounded by so many intelligent minds, supportive souls, and 110% quality human beings.
What’s happened since the last entry – well we went to Canada and explored British Columbia, I went to Coachella, I freaked out about not having any money left, all that good stuff.
I’ll recap the Canadian adventure and Coachella experience in separate posts, because they deserve odes of their own.
However, I guess I’m just writing because I haven’t written in a while. And I want to express to myself in the future and everyone amidst their youth: DO NOT TAKE IT FOR GRANTED.
This is such a special time in our lives.
Every time is a special time in our lives.
If you think about it in terms of simple, sheer state of experience, every moment we share with the world is irreplaceable. Every moment we experience is unrepeatable.
If we can recognize this in our day to day lives, there is an overwhelming amount of gratitude and acknowledgement of our present surroundings that inevitably fills us up with joy. It’s the feeling you get when you look back on one of your most precious memories, except you are looking at it in the present.
For example, on our drive back from Coachella at around 3:00AM in the morning, I looked at the road (dark and barely lit), turned to my friend Ashley in the driver’s seat, and thought to myself “wow, this is being young, this is my youth and her youth, their youth and our youth, happening right now”. It was as if I saw every precious moment passing by – I wanted to reach out, grasp it, lift it up and smile and cheer, our youth and our joy and our connections. Our human experience.
These last couple of months in Isla Vista will undoubtedly be some of the best of our college career, with the warm sun beating down, people out playing in the day, and the ocean as our backyard for the very last time (unless we hit it big time, hello friends in Engineering).
I started making random Facebook events prompting all of us to make use of our last few months in this paradise – tonight is sunset beers, next week we’ll jump off the pier, and who knows what we’ll come up with in the weeks to come.
I have met so many incredible people this year, in addition to the years previous, that has made me completely in love with the philosophy that people are good, capable of any friendship, and wholeheartedly want to contribute to the world.
It’s funny, because if I wasn’t so joyous, these last few months could be incredibly stressful. And they are in a sense. I’m finishing my honors thesis, we barely have any of our data analyzed, I have 1 of 25 pages of my paper completed, I have several presentations to give for the research conference that remain unplanned, I still don’t have a job lined up for next year and am pushing through the “apply till you die” time period of my life. I chose to be financially independent from my parents starting June and am barely staying below my monthly budget. I still have to take the GRE in order to apply to some of the graduate programs/fellowships I’ve kept my eye on (for creative management).
But, well, we have a choice when it comes to these things: worry or enjoy. Fret or let be.
I trust that I will get everything done that I need to, because I always have. We always do the things we need to, and usually, everything ends up better than we anticipate.
In other words, life is like a current that sweeps you along with it regardless of your state of mind – you can choose to be stressed, or you can choose to walk around with a light head, smiling. Stressing only makes you suffer through what you need to do twice (before, and during).
So I’m not stressed, for the most part. In fact, I’m quite the opposite. I feel SO GREAT. Sorry for the caps, but I really do.
I don’t know where I’m headed at the moment, applying to jobs and planning a flexible route to becoming a creative director, but what we have to remember is that no one really does. Have goals, be ambitious, but don’t ruminate over planning your life or else you might forget to live it.
I’m mainly looking at jobs in New York, Seattle, Los Angeles, and San Francisco, because I really want to live in a big city. There is so much life, action, dreams dreamt, and hopes made into reality that is fostered by populous areas. But I’ll also miss the slow pace, small community, and overall easy-going, happy-go-lucky vibes of a town like Isla Vista.
Boy, will I miss Isla Vista. Let’s not go there for now though.
Amidst all of this, I am also starting to develop two new websites in addition to this silly little life blog. The first is a community platform promoting worldwide creative expression, by which those I meet (friends, family) and those who submit entries can post creative pieces in any format. The second is a website for my own media, which I hope to brand and develop further as time goes on (especially once these university deadlines are done and through with) – soon I should have some prints up and ready for purchase.
Dreams dreams dreams. I have a lot of visions and plan on seeing them through!
Which means I should stop writing about myself and get to work. 🙂
Till next time,
P.S. The culture of this blog is shifting to that of my entire genuine being, meaning things will be more humorous and weird because well that’s what I love. If you are looking for creative, innovative, fresh content stay tuned for the new website (hhhumans).